Martyrs

Yet not as I will but as You will. Jesus' prayer in the garden of Gethsemane. Jesus' heart must have been so very broken at the thought of being separated from You Abba. The pain of His broken heart must have masked the pain inflicted on His broken body. I always thought if I was told to renounce You or suffer torture I, being a coward, might renounce You. Now as I think of the pain of a broken heart if separated from You I think that my body could suffer anything being done to it. Martyrdom must be a deeply spiritual thing. Lord as You srengthen and empower us in our daily lives You must really empower martyrs when they are suffering. I love you so much Lord. I pray Ephesians 3:14-21 for my family, friends and others that no matter what their circumstances they would renounce their sins and say Yet not as I will but as You will.

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom His whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge —that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

God is so amazing

God is so amazing and sometimes I can hardly believe how dense I am. November 11th I was sitting at the computer thinking I'm hungry, missing a friend, thinking of the times in my life when I feel lonely and I always turn to food. As I'm sitting there trying to think of what I'm hungry for, thinking that I've eaten so I don't need food but still craving something and thinking of what food I have yet knowing that none of it will satisfy me I finally cry and ask God why I always feel this way and turn to food when I feel lonely and the food doesn't satisfy me. God said "My Word satisfies" and instantly the hunger for food was gone, the loneliness was gone, I had peace and knew I wanted to / needed to read the Bible. God is so-o amazing. My soul, my craving was satisfied as soon as I started reading the Word.