josefa is the great-grandmother to 3 young boys, leo is 3, jeffrey is 6 and yrlin is 8. they live in this house where there is no power, no water, dirt floors, no doors, bamboo walls, and corrugated tin walls with black plastic on the top half that blows in with the wind. they have nothing. but they have each other and for them that's everything.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
changes
soon we will be going back to canada. everyone to their respective homes. except me. i don-t have a home anymore. and i-m not sure how i feel about that. i have always had a place i could call my own. my own bed, my own kitchen, my own bathroom.
today i looked at beautiful art work, scenes of costa rica that i would decorate my home with, if i had one. if i ever have a home of my own again i will have more plants than i have had before, which was a lot. just to recreate the beautiful green space that surrounds me here. i would have tile floors instead of carpeting. i will have less clutter, less meaningless things.
i have always been a beach person but find that it has less appeal for me now. i feel changed but don-t understand it and can-t explain it.
leaving my family in amparo was hard. a tearjerker to say the least. as with every other time in the last six months that i struggled with something i talked to God. He gave me such peace. and as i played english worship music on the van cd player my tears of sadness were replaced with tears of joy in the love i have for my heavenly Father.
when i think of the past 6 months and all the times i-ve wondered why i was here, the ups and downs, should i stay or should i go. what has been the most important for me was that i came closer to God. He has been so awesome. He has taken such good care of me, He has given me everything i have needed. i had thought i had an amazing intimate relationship with God but it has grown deeper than i could have imagined.
have no idea what the next 7 months hold in store for me when i return to costa rica for another 6 months, never mind after that when i return to canada. maybe i will have a home, maybe i will have a bigger suitcase.
march 29, 2005 in touch magazine. don-t have it with me so it-s maybe not an exact quote but goes like - whatever You want Lord, wherever You want Lord, whenever You want Lord, the answer is yes.
today i looked at beautiful art work, scenes of costa rica that i would decorate my home with, if i had one. if i ever have a home of my own again i will have more plants than i have had before, which was a lot. just to recreate the beautiful green space that surrounds me here. i would have tile floors instead of carpeting. i will have less clutter, less meaningless things.
i have always been a beach person but find that it has less appeal for me now. i feel changed but don-t understand it and can-t explain it.
leaving my family in amparo was hard. a tearjerker to say the least. as with every other time in the last six months that i struggled with something i talked to God. He gave me such peace. and as i played english worship music on the van cd player my tears of sadness were replaced with tears of joy in the love i have for my heavenly Father.
when i think of the past 6 months and all the times i-ve wondered why i was here, the ups and downs, should i stay or should i go. what has been the most important for me was that i came closer to God. He has been so awesome. He has taken such good care of me, He has given me everything i have needed. i had thought i had an amazing intimate relationship with God but it has grown deeper than i could have imagined.
have no idea what the next 7 months hold in store for me when i return to costa rica for another 6 months, never mind after that when i return to canada. maybe i will have a home, maybe i will have a bigger suitcase.
march 29, 2005 in touch magazine. don-t have it with me so it-s maybe not an exact quote but goes like - whatever You want Lord, wherever You want Lord, whenever You want Lord, the answer is yes.
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