guatemala

i am planning to go on a missions trip to guatemala april 6th to supply a small village with clean, safe drinking water. they were in the path of hurricane stan last year and their water is so contaminated they are getting sick and have sores on their bodies. as well the indigenous mayans in this village worship other gods and we want to share the gospel with them.

i have no money whatsoever and no job to pay for this trip but i believe that God wants me to go.

i prayed asking that God would reveal His will. then i had a dream but i never paid any attention to it. i was waiting to hear His voice loud and clear. as i didn't believe He had answered me i prayed again. i had a second identical dream which i then understood to be His affirmation that i was going.

last night the leader phoned to say that they were buying the tickets today and as someone else had cancelled out they wanted to confirm that i was still planning on going. what could i say. it is on my heart to go, i believe God is calling me to it, but i have absolutely not a dime for it. i prayed about it, again asking God for confirmation of His will. woke up at 5am with no answer. prayed again and had another dream that someone gave the leader $500 for me.

the leader asked if i had approached my church for funding or an opportunity to speak at a service to promote it. i hadn't because there were teams already fundraising for trips to thailand and mexico.

i had applied for a job, which turned out to be vacation relief for my old job. after 26 years i thought i should qualify for it. weeks later, when the job had still not been awarded, i thought if i had a job i might be trusting in that, in myself and in my own ability to pay if i did have a job.

instead i'm trusting in God, that if this is His will He will provide. i have nothing else, only Him, and yet He is all i need.