last fall i felt that God was leading me to help out at the alpha course. towards the end of the course i thought about helping at the next course. nope. i told God i didn't want to help at the next course because it would be winter and i hate the cold. i told God i would help at the spring course.
my pastor asked if i'd lead a table at alpha for people from our church. i had said yes but when i thought about it being in the winter i kept thinking no-o i didn't want to do a winter course. it is so cold and even inside it's cold and i sit there in pain in cold. i don't know if it's from the cancer or that i've never acclimatized from 38 degree weather in costa rica but i really feel the cold.
i told greg i couldn't lead a table because i was going on a mission trip. i told the alpha leaders that i would miss a couple of weeks hoping they would say they didn't need me. then i would be off the hook and i could help in the spring. they said missing 2 weeks would be ok as long as i would be there for the weekend away.
the weekend away is absolutely the best weekend but in the winter i'm thinking the worst weekend cuz you're outside a lot. i hate winter, i hate the cold and i hate being outside in the cold.
i went to the training meeting last week and one of the leaders talked about treating each person coming to alpha with love and care and protect them and treat them if they were own beloved family. i thought of my daughter.
the next morning i thought of how selfish i was being, thinking of my discomfort at being cold and my daughter and what the leader had said. i thought how i had to with my whole heart love, care for, protect and treat each person as i prayed someone would be loving my own daughter,caring for her, protecting her and treating he as if she were their beloved child.
God calls us to preach good news to the poor whenever, wherever. He gave me a wake up call that morning. i thought of Jesus again and His suffering. knowing the suffering ahead of Him Jesus gave His life for others.
how is God trying to get your attention?
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