saprissa vs liga

tonight is the championship game between the top two teams in costa rica. i have to go san jose to get the stuff i left at patri's house (the oldest daughter) which i had expected to get the day after i arrived. so since i have to go anyway and need someone to help me, dany, jonny, marcos and i will go to the game.

weight restrictions

each piece of luggage is only supposed to weight 50#. anything over that and you have to pay extra. i knew i was going to be over so sushi said if i was going to have to pay if i was over a couple of pounds i may as well make it worthwhile. well i was definitely over, i knew i was i just didn't know how much. my suitcase was 60#, the box was 96#. it was an extra $130 so you really have to watch your weight.

feel like a kid

every time i get on a plane. i like sitting in the window seat so i can look out. this time i flew america west airlines and i don't know if we took off in a different direction or if it was daylight this time or just not raining or what but it was beautiful looking out over vancouver. we flew into phoenix - man it is huge freaking airport. miles of moving sidewalks.

sweats on again

i brought a thermostat with me and yesterday it was 36 degrees in the livingroom. while i was in canada the doctor told me that when you live in a hot country your blood thins which explains why when you return to a cold country you freeze. toothpaste and other creams in a tube just about leak out of the tube they are so thinned out. when i came home i almost had to use both hands to squeeze anything out of the tubes because they were so thick.

sorry if i'm not making any sense i haven't been able to fully wake up yet.

home again

the family didn't have any money so there was no one here to meet me at the airport. after waiting for a half hour i phoned home and they told me. no problema because i have always told them i am a big girl and can find my way home. i stayed at the hotel alajuela and took the first bus home the next morning, getting up at 4 a.m. i have only had about 4 hours sleep every night for the past week so i have been walking about in a fog for a few days. i still am. as i was dozing on the bus someone tussled my hair and i looked up to see dany smiling down at me. he had taken the bus to santa rosa to meet me. it was so good to see him.

when will i ever learn

people have asked me what i'm going to do in costa rica when i return. i thought i knew. i had it all figured out. then one morning i woke up and felt like i was out of sync with God. when that happens i know i've said or done something i shouldn't have and i need to take care of it in order to be right with God. i didn't swear, get drunk or have illicit sex. so what was it. i couldn't think of what it was so i had to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal to me what was causing me to feel this way.

arrogance. i was making all these plans. how can God use us if we plan everything instead of letting things happen according to God's plan. whoa! i thought oh crap. i went from knowing what i was going to do to not having a clue again and having to wait on God. i liked the idea that i knew what i was going to do. i didn't like the idea that i had no idea. God doesn't tell me things way in advance. He makes me wait until the very last minute.

when i realized my sin against God i started to cry and instantly (it was very weird, snap your fingers instantly) He gave me peace, dried my tears and restored me to Himself.

have i not learned anything? i even have it in my sidebar 'about me' - i have no idea what i will do or where i will live (here i mean in costa rica) but i know God has a plan for me and will tell me when i need to know...

i hate that. i hate not knowing. i still don't have any doubts or fears or worries so i'll just go and let it all unfold according to God's plan.

truly, madly, deeply

i have fallen more in love with God than i thought possible. i don't think that before i went to costa rica i would have been as content with my singleness as i am now. i am a very touchy, feely kind of person and have wanted to share my life with a husband. i can still say i would like to have a husband but it is no longer something to be mourned over if i don't. and besides the bar is too high now for almost anyone. i'm so in love with God it would be hard for anyone to live up to that. only someone that loves God more than me, someone that would give their all to God, someone totally surrendered to God would ever come close.

faith

is God testing yours? has He asked you to do something you don't want to do? when we are faithful the enemy will attack us with a vengeance trying to destroy our faith. God is stronger though and when we are on our knees He will lift us up. as the bible says we really do need to take every thought captive to Christ.

who's in charge

people seem to be forgetting that God is the one that's in charge.
what we need to remember is that nothing can happen to any one of us that God does not allow. whatever our circumstances are God is the one in control. if we are going through a tough time He knows. i can't explain why bad things happen to good people except that God must have a good reason for it. He is perfect, His will is perfect and His timing is perfect. circumstances may not be what we would choose for ourselves or our friends or family but God really does work things out for good for those who love Him. we may not understand it and we may not like it but we have to trust that He loves us more than we could possibly imagine and He knows what we need more than we know ourselves.

instead of complaining about our lives or those of us around us remember that God is fully aware of everything and that He has the final say. if He is allowing hardship in your life you might want to ask why. is He trying to get your attention for something? if you don't like what's happening in yours or a friend's life remember - you're not the one in control. give it up. you don't have it anyway.