the Lord's discipline

reading in touch magazine about how God disciplines His children. i can't say that i have recognized His divine discipline when He has corrected me in the past but i certainly do now. i feel close to Him, i feel Him in my life, His presence, all the time. except when i sin. although i know that He is still there i don't feel His closeness, like He has withdrawn from me. it's the aloneness, emptiness i feel without Him that brings me to repentance. He is my dearly beloved and until i tell Him i'm sorry and ask for forgiveness my heart aches in His silence. and when He forgives me and restores me my heart aches in joy in His sweet love.