God's presence

it was a full house here on saturday and very noisy so i went to the church for some quiet time alone. later jose asked me if i felt God's present there and i told him i feel Him whenever-wherever we're alone together. jose said that he knew God was everywhere but felt His presence especially in the church. i talked with God and worshiped Him for 4 hours. it was very emotionally draining. then i went home for dinner and back to church for another 2 hours. maybe because i don't understnad the language or the culture church here doesn't have the same effect on me as it does on them. i'm an emotional person but they really get emotional. i am not as moved by church here as i am at home. i would have to be dead (or in costa rica) to miss nh. and i do miss nh. as far as talking to God. He's not some unapproachable, high and mighty (well He is that) King sitting on His throne (well He is that too) that we have to make an appointment with to get an audience. and this may be the hard part for some who were abused by their fathers but He's our Dad who wants to talk with us. He wants us to talk to Him about our joys and our sorrows. just anything and everything. just talk to Him - cuz He's always there, He's always listening. when you need to talk to someone He's always available and believe me i talk to Him a lot. he's the only one that understands completely how i feel and what i need. if someone or something is bugging me here who am i gonna talk to. mimi doesnt' speak english and the boys speak a different language entirely. when i get frustrated with someone i know i have to take every thought captive to God cuz the enemy would love to cause division and i don't want to let him get his foot in the door. when i need an answer He directs me to where i will find it or just puts it on my heart.