feeling kinda emotional this time around

not sure why but the last few months i have cried a few times. i thought it was because of the full moons but the past 2 days there hasn't been a full moon. i feel like i'm more running away from home than leaving the country for 3 days. instead of becoming more tranquila i seem to be less. i love everyone so much but they just don't care about things and it's driving me crazy. i miss them just being away for 1 day. as much as living there is driving me crazy there is no place i'd rather be. they take immaculate personal care but as for the house and yard, nobody gives a ..it. so why should i care if they don't? they are perfectly happy, tranquilo.